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I'm glad I'm following through with this whole process. If I hadn't followed through with this I wouldn't have met 11 other girls whom I've really grown to care and love for. The thought of growing close to 11 strangers within a period of 2 months is very ridiculous. But through the good and bad times, we've learned to persevere and endure everything that has come along with this process. We've tested our own limits and done things that exceeded our own expectations. These strangers that I sat in the same room with utter and awkward silence during rush week are the same girls that I look and turn to when I need someone to talk to or someone to listen. Everything that we have been put through and will be put through, we've come to realize that surely one day from now, we will look back on it and laugh. Sure, right now, things may prove to be difficult and at times we really question ourselves if this is what we really want, but we've learn to rely on each other for support. We sit and joke around, and at the mention of things we have had to be put through, we laugh now. It's going to be the same for the coming week, it'll be tough, but when we look back on it after it's all been said and done, it'll definitely be in the books for memories.

When one of us feels like giving up, just remember that we're all in the same boat and because you personally don't and wouldn't want any of us to fail, you'll see it through with the rest of us to the end to ensure that we ALL succeed. :) love you girls.

On a side note, the type of bond we have is very similar to a relationship. We go through a bunch of shit and sometimes we just feel like giving up because we're just tired of the shit we gotta go through and we don't want to do it anymore and we question why we even bother. But the things we have already been through and the good times we have together prevails and we realize that it's worth staying for because we've come this far and nothing else can compare to what we've been through. Expressing how you feel and bearing no resentment because you really care and know the other person feels the same and want things to be better, just like the POW WOW session we had, will lead to better outcomes. If we hadn't really expressed why and what we disliked about the other and thought needed improvement on, we would've never all gotten along better and grown to be as close as we are now. We didn't do it because we feel like everything's gonna be all rainbows and butterflies in the end, but because we've built upon and worked on something worth while through time and we see that compromising moves us along to see better days, rather than walking away. If we had just kept quiet about the way we felt, then nothing would've gotten better because the other person wouldn't know. So i figured, someone who doesn't feel like being a part of my life shouldn't be allowed to be a part of my life anyways because it'll be better that way. I'll surround myself with people whom I care about whom i know cares about me as well. It'll only work if the feelings are mutual. Just like friendships and relationships, it is what you make of it and you can only depend on the other to put in so much work, it has to be mutual in order for things to get better.